Portraits of Grace: Joanne (1 of 2)

Portraits of Grace is a snapshot into the lives of the people at King’s Cross Church. As “kingdom minded, kingdom people,” we recognize God’s work in every detail of our lives. We invite you to meet the people of our church.

Photo by Minnow Park

I was 6 when I first learned how to unlove myself. A classmate told me that my eyes were too small, my nose was too flat and my body was too big. I was a minority within my peers, TV shows and even my Barbies told me I was different. It’s like being an extra puzzle piece; I was someone that could never fit in. In art class, I used to draw “myself” with blonde hair and blue eyes. My art teacher would always tell me, “Joanne, this isn’t you!”— I didn’t want to be me. There was always a reason to feel ugly or inadequate. Even at 6, I saw my flaws and shortcomings as too big and my identity in God as not enough.

I still struggle with the same thing, but under a different context. There are days when the world tells me that I’m a failure and my insecurities say I’m a disappointment. I am coated in sin and my “real self” is unloveable. Yet, the best thing in my life sees within and beyond my imperfections and says that He loves me and that He will always love me. Is that grace?  (1/2)